Rachel L McManus

  I thought my darkest days ended when my husband came out of his coma. I was wrong. God has had us on this journey for a reason although I am not quite sure why, other than His Name be glorified. When our life suddenly changed in November of 2019, I expected it to eventually get back to 'normal'. It hasn't and it never will. Our lives keep changing every few months. Sometimes weekly it seems, just when I get used to things being one way, something else changes with him or something in our lives and it turns us topsy- turvy again.  The first few weeks and months after his stroke and coma, he was having to relearn things. His speech was affected not only by how he pronounced things, but his descriptions of things, his command of the language itself was teetered on the edge of almost non existent. He switched words around and got frustrated when I couldn't understand him and he couldn't understand me. He couldn't tell you what the name of a clock was, could mainly...

 E very time I get to know God a little bit more, I fall in love with Him just a little deeper. His love for me seems to penetrate the shell that I built around my heart a long time ago. He knows that I know when I do something wrong and if I don't immediately repent, He lays it heavy on my heart until I do. See it is not about what I have done, who I am or what I have accomplished in this life or finished. It is about what HE has done, Who HE is and what HE has accomplished and finished.      It is something that He has to deal with on a daily basis and get my heart right before He can maneuver blessings into my life, or even people and situations out of my life .   Sometimes my pride and selfishness get in the way of the plans that God has for me and my family.      God has blessed me greatly within my life and am so greatly appreciative of His love and guidance. Why does He even love me? Care about me? Or desire to even see me accomplish anythi...